Filed under Drama, Family, Life, Love Life, Personal
This weekend was supposed to be the start of something nice: Spring Break. That’s what I thought..but it hasn’t happened that way. Thursday night my mother came home extremely drunk at 1 in the morning, screaming and cursing at me while kicking down my door and the walls. Both Andy and I were so scared of her that we decided to just leave. We called my dad and asked if we could stay since we had to be up at 6AM for a Government exam and fortunately he said yes. We stayed the night and went to class the next morning. After my exam my Grandpa called me and chewed me out about leaving last night and told me how I was in the wrong for it. Excuse me? I was scared and I ran. How could I be in the wrong for that? I’m not a little girl anymore and I can leave the house when I feel like it, especially when I feel how I felt that night. Andy and I have stayed away from my mother’s house since then. My grandparents are furious with me and I honestly don’t know why. I had to come home today because they’re planning a little “talk” about mine and Andy’s relationship..like it’s any of their business. Here comes the part that’s hard for me to talk about..Andy decided he wasn’t going to put up with my mom’s crap (or my grandparents either) anymore and moved out. He’s going to be living with my dad for a while until we can afford to move into an apartment together. I feel so alone without him here..I’m going to have a very, very hard time sleeping at night without him by my side anymore. I don’t know how to cope with all of this. I haven’t spoken to my mother since then and I don’t plan on speaking to her for a while, but I’ll probably have to tonight at the “family meeting”. I wanted to ask everyone for their input on what I should do to cope..I saw this beautiful kitty at Petsmart that reminded me of Tango and I wanted to buy him right then and there, but I know my mom won’t allow me to have a kitty in my room. I really think that would help me in coping with Andy not being in my room with me anymore. Opinions? So, my main point for this blog is to explain what has been going on and why i’ll be taking a break from my website. I’m not going to have access to a computer for a while. I’ll be around the internet with my Blackberry, but for now I’m going to take a hiatus from my website until further notice, or at least until I can get my life back in order.

  Filed under Animals, Death
Last night my mom was going to let Tango, my almost 10 year old tabby my cat, inside but instead accidentally scared him off the porch and he ran off. We tried to get him back inside but he just wouldn’t come. If we had any idea this would be the reason he’s not here right now, I would have gone out and caught him and brought him back in to safety.

It was around 6am when my mom came in my room and told me Tango still hadn’t tried to come inside. Andy and I went outside trying to find him, but half way across the street my mom yelled at me to come back. We got back to her and she started crying while saying “Tango is dead.” I couldn’t figure out how she knew, until she pointed me to look under the corner of our house. There he was, laying in his side. We tried saying his name but he wouldn’t move a muscle. We knew he was dead. My mom got under and brought his body out which was already deathly cold. There were black marks on him everywhere so we concluded that he must have been hit by a car and was able to walk back to his home before his life ended. I can’t help but blame myself for it. I wish I had tried letting him in the house sooner than when we found him. I have a feeling he had only been hit by a car a couple of hours beforehand. This might sound immoral to some people, but my mom and I want to have his fur taken off and made into a small kitty blanket so we’ll always have something to remember him by. I don’t like the fact of him being put into the ground where all the bugs can get at him..that’s just a waste. So hopefully we can find somewhere today that can do that for us. It’s going to be expensive, but I think it will be worth it. We raised him from a little 2 week old kitten. We fed him and his 3 brothers and sister off a bottle until they were old enough to eat on their own. He used to always sleep on the top of my pillow or down by my feet on my bed with me. He’d come in my room and wait for me to get off the computer to lay with him and I would always make him wait so long that he would eventually just leave. I wish I hadn’t taken these moments for granted. I know a lot of people say that animals don’t have a soul, but I do believe that they do, and their souls live on forever. I will always remember you T.T.

  Filed under Drama, Friends, Humor, Life
I’ve come to realize that I have absolutely no organization in my life right now. In my mind I can pile up tons of things on the to-do list in my brain, but I never can seem to sort them out. For instance, I want to start Project 365 again. This will be my second attempt since my last one ended so abruptly due to camera issues. However, every day comes and goes, and I never find the time to take a snapshot for the day. Also, I need to clean up my mess of a room. That’s really what’s my priority right now. I guess that means I should probably be cleaning instead of blogging, but yet again my website is another thing to add to the list. I have worked really hard the past two weeks fixing it up, but I’m still not finished. I figured I would devote another weekend to it, but I realized this weekend is my Mardi Gras trip. Does anyone have any ideas as to how I can better prioritize my time and get things done effectively? As I mentioned in my last post, I highlighted my tips red. However, I changed my mind and decided to just do full-blown red highlights and tips. BAD BAD BAD BAD idea! My mother put them in for me and she did a very good job, but for some reason they weren’t red. They turned out a pale orange / coral color and they looked absolutely TERRIBLE. I cried and cried after Andy blow dried my hair for me because it looked so bad. I went on the net and read that I’d have to strip my hair with some color stripper (which would most likely make my hair all break off due to me basically dying it 2 times in 5 days) and then recolor the hair that I would have left. So that was my plan for last night. I called my friend Tori over and she told me that I actually didn’t have to use hair stripper (OH THANK YOU LORD!) and that she would do it properly for me. So, she dyed my highlights first so they would take the color longer than the rest of my hair, and then she continued doing the other parts. It made me really nervous because I still thought it would turn out really bad, but instead it looked really great. I like it a lot now that I’m back to normal I would still like to dye my tips though like I had in mind at first, but I think I want to stick to either pink or blue. Suggestions? This weekend my family and I are switching over from AT&T to Sprint. This means I’ll be able to get the phone I’ve been wanting! The Samsung Rant. It has all the capabilities of the LG Rumor plus more, like GPS navigation and a better way to surf the net. That means I can take full advantage of the unlimited data package we’ll be getting as well Anyway, I guess I better start trying to get my priorities straight, and sitting on the computer isn’t going to help out much. Any comments will help Toodles!