Filed under Family, Life, Updates, Work
I’ve tried to think of a time in my life when I have taken a minute to just stop, think, and evaluate how my life is at that moment in time, and I honestly can’t find anything. I’ve thought about it plenty of times, but I’ve never actually studied it. I believe it is pretty crucial in everyone’s lives to just take a few seconds to realize exactly how their life has been in the past, how it is now, and what they would like to do to make it that much better in the future. I’m sure there are a lot of people who follow that routine religiously, day by day, and there are others who are like me, who have never experienced it. Sometimes I kind of wish I wasn’t the latter. I usually try to live my life in the present, but for some reason I am always sucked back into the past. I severely let the past take hold of me and completely rip me apart. I let it prevent me from expanding certain parts of my life, and it greatly holds me back. I want to try and change how my life is. I want to be able to look at my past and actually realize that there’s no possible what that I can change it, and go on living my life without it affecting me. Well, for some reason I’m having an extremely difficult time doing so.

To make things worse, Andy is moving away. He is moving to Idaho to live with his sister because he can’t stand living with my family. They are extremely rude and uncaring toward him, and I can’t even fathom where they have any reasoning to do so. He is wonderful and he doesn’t deserve to be treated that way. That’s the only reason why I agreed to letting him go..I know living with me while I’m living with my mother is an unhealthy environment for him to be in. We have talked about moving out numerous times, but have never had the motivation to do so. Well, it has jumped right out at me and slapped me in the face. After he moved away I’m most likely going to try and get a job at Starbucks again, and of course he’s going to try and get a stable job up in Idaho. Once we can afford to move out, he will move back to Texas to live with me. Having him by me every day of my life and then him just up and leaving is going to be a major change for me. I’m going to miss him so much, but I think in a way it will help our relationship grow stronger. We will stay in contact every day either through the phone or internet, I guess whichever is more convenient for the both of us. I guess I’ll just have to wait and see how things go for the next couple of months. At least with him being gone, I’ll have more time to reflect and work on my own life.

  Filed under Family, Updates
I was trying to come up with a good title for this blog, but I am completely blank right now. I think I need a little imagination boost.. Since my last post, I haven’t done much at all. School starts back up on August 25th and I am still not planning on taking classes this semester. Why? I need a break from school that’s longer than a 3 month Summer vacation. I still have not been able to find a stable job. I applied at PetSmart PetHotel a week ago and haven’t heard back from them yet, so they’re either not hiring or just taking applications. Either way, I’m still going to call tomorrow and see what’s up. I desperately need a job, and so does Andy. I’m 19 years old and he is 21 and we’re living with my Mother. now, I’m not saying we’re in a terrible spot because my mom’s house is pretty laid back, but I do need to get out on my own feet and I also want a bit more privacy. The funny thing is, one minute my mom discusses the fact that it’s time for us to get out of the house, but then she drags us back in by telling us “you’ll never be able to support yourselves in the real world!” Honestly, nothing is going to happen if that attitude is thrown around. Nothing is going to happen without progress, even if that means making a few mistakes. As soon as Andy and I have a stable job, we’re saving up, at the very least, 3/4ths of each of our paychecks to go in to savings to move out. Hopefully we can accomplish saving up enough for a deposit and a few months of rent by the end of the year.

As for my online life, I took a break from things. I was not really participating in the Quilting Bee as much as I should have committed, including my staff duties. However I’ve tried to catch back up and everything seems okay now. I’m going to try and not let myself fall behind again. I’ve also been playing a lot of Neopets as of late.. almost on the verge of an unhealthy addiction. I’m going to try and limit my computer use to only a few hours a day or so, and my more important online duties (paying bills, eBay, Q*Bee, etc.) will come before anything else.

Recently my hormones have been out of whack and it has definitely taken a toll on my face. I went to the dermatologist yesterday and boy was it the quickest appointment I’ve ever been to. I waited in the waiting room for a total of about 15 minutes and was in a room in no time. As soon as the doctor came in, she looked at my face for a minute and prescribed me Doryx. Thank God this prescription only costs me $25, because I lost my insurance when I turned 19. Anyway, I have to take one pill every morning. Yesterday was my first dose and I’m already suffering from one of the side effects, heartburn. The only thing I can do about it is drink cold water to ease the pain because if I take any kind of antacid pills (especially ones with calcium), it contradicts the medication. Hopefully this will be my one and only side effect, though. The worst thing I saw on the list was the runs and a constant yeast infection, yech! I guess I’ll be hitting the Activia yogurt until my face clears up! I also have to use a 5.5% benzoyl peroxide wash twice a day and Differin once a night. It doesn’t seem like too hard of a regime for what it’s worth. I need to get a new planner so I can write stuff down to remind me of things like this..but for now my wall calendar is going to make do.

Cross your fingers (and toes) for me that all this medicine will work!

  Filed under Humor, Personal, Summer
As of late I have been MIA, at least from the internet that is. This summer has not been completely how I’ve wanted it to be. I haven’t really done much of anything this past month that I had planned on doing. I’ve been lazy and boring and I need to fix that! So, the first thing I’m going to do in this what I call my “Summer attitude turn-around plan thingy” is clean my messy room. Yes, I have definitely been letting myself and my living habits go. Maximus is literally begging me to clean his litter box so that’s on my to-do list for today as well. My car is pretty messy on the inside too, so I definitely have a lot on my plate for today. hence this is why my blog has been baren from my presence and will be for a little bit longer. OH, and I just realized that my comment form is now broken. Great! Just another thing I need to fix today!