Filed under Updates
Considering right now I don’t have a job, even though I’m frantically looking for one, I need to make use of the spare time that I have. I need to update my Wordpress, first of all. Secondly, I need to design a new layout. Helllooo Amber, It’s not summer anymore! I did actually fix a few errors around my site this morning. My host switched companies and the new one used PHP5, so I had to alter a few of my includes so they would work properly. Thank God I managed to figure out what to do myself This is just a quick update, though. I’ve lost pretty much all of my visitors that used to frequent my site (Probably because of my lack of blogging, I’m assuming) but hopefully once I get back into updating more often, everyone will come back to visit me more often

  Filed under Starbucks, Summer, Updates, Winter, Work
I’m still lurking around the net as usual, just not as often as I was before. I update my Twitter pretty religiously, but when it comes to making a full blog, I’m hopeless as of right now. I think the whole conformity of only have 140 characters to write about is rotting me from the inside out when it comes to having the creativity to make a decently long blog. Nonetheless, I do want to get back in to blogging, not just for the interwebs, but also for personal logging of my life. I like looking back through my blog entries and reading about stuff, and I’m sure I can relate to a lot of people on here in that idea. I hope everyone has enjoyed looking at this summery layout throughout summer and fall, but I definitely want to put something new up by Winter. That would be weird if I just left this up the rest of the year.

I’ve been to numerous interviews the past few weeks, and actually scored a job. I was hired at Bath & body Works. Unfortunately, they did not explain to me that I could constantly be a call-in. I was scheduled for 4 days out of the week and was told not to come each one. I asked them about it and that is when they actually explained it to me. Jerks. I dropped that job as quickly as I could, even though I was very excited to start working there. I had an interview at Barnes & Noble, and have tried numerous times to get back with the hiring manager, but she is always on vacation / busy / not in. I asked someone to leave a message from me for her to call me back but apparently she just doesn’t want to, or she didn’t receive the message in the first place. Either way, I’ve been calling back every day asking for her with no avail. hopefully today this will change. also, a store called Fashion Bug is very interested in hiring me. I haven’t heard anything back yet, but supposedly the manager is out until Friday, so hopefully then I will find something out. Andy already has two jobs. He works for UPS and Target. He never gets a job before me! I’ve always been the one to get work before him, but that’s changed. I really would like to go back to Starbucks, but of course, none of them are hiring. i think the one I used to work is hiring at the moment, but I refuse to go back there for numerous reasons. I guess I’ll just back to suck it up and go back if I can’t find any work, though.

  Filed under Family, Updates, Work
I’ve tried to think of a time in my life when I have taken a minute to just stop, think, and evaluate how my life is at that moment in time, and I honestly can’t find anything. I’ve thought about it plenty of times, but I’ve never actually studied it. I believe it is pretty crucial in everyone’s lives to just take a few seconds to realize exactly how their life has been in the past, how it is now, and what they would like to do to make it that much better in the future. I’m sure there are a lot of people who follow that routine religiously, day by day, and there are others who are like me, who have never experienced it. Sometimes I kind of wish I wasn’t the latter. I usually try to live my life in the present, but for some reason I am always sucked back into the past. I severely let the past take hold of me and completely rip me apart. I let it prevent me from expanding certain parts of my life, and it greatly holds me back. I want to try and change how my life is. I want to be able to look at my past and actually realize that there’s no possible what that I can change it, and go on living my life without it affecting me. Well, for some reason I’m having an extremely difficult time doing so.

To make things worse, Andy is moving away. He is moving to Idaho to live with his sister because he can’t stand living with my family. They are extremely rude and uncaring toward him, and I can’t even fathom where they have any reasoning to do so. He is wonderful and he doesn’t deserve to be treated that way. That’s the only reason why I agreed to letting him go..I know living with me while I’m living with my mother is an unhealthy environment for him to be in. We have talked about moving out numerous times, but have never had the motivation to do so. Well, it has jumped right out at me and slapped me in the face. After he moved away I’m most likely going to try and get a job at Starbucks again, and of course he’s going to try and get a stable job up in Idaho. Once we can afford to move out, he will move back to Texas to live with me. Having him by me every day of my life and then him just up and leaving is going to be a major change for me. I’m going to miss him so much, but I think in a way it will help our relationship grow stronger. We will stay in contact every day either through the phone or internet, I guess whichever is more convenient for the both of us. I guess I’ll just have to wait and see how things go for the next couple of months. At least with him being gone, I’ll have more time to reflect and work on my own life.